desperation

(When he saw Jesus, he fell to his knees,

beside himself as he begged…Mark 5:22-23)

desperation

in spite of all the negative press

is actually a good thing

when aimed in the right direction

in fact

desperation is a gift

it establishes such a fruitful posture

usually on our knees

desperation is incredibly unpopular

yet creates rich and fertile soil

for the Spirit to do his work

a rich and life-giving blessing

in an awful and scary disguise

without it

there is no reaching

no grasping wildly for God

and therefore

without it

there is no touch

no transforming encounter

O Lord

how do i live with a spirit of desperation

on a daily basis?

does it always take desperate circumstances

or is it possible

to live with a desperate need for you

even when circumstances are not so dire?

O Lord

i long to be desperate for you

desperate for your love

desperate for your presence

desperate for your  touch

and if it can possibly happen

without desperate circumstances

that would be great:)